December 15, 2011
Put on Some Lipstick - A Tribute to Nana
So she was put on life support. Cory & I went to visit on Wednesday for 1/2 an hour or so. She was completely unconcious, so it was mostly to support my stepdad, who was VERY close to her.
But it went downhill from there. We tried to gradually reduce her the life support & she crashed. By Saturday morning the decision was made to take her off of life support. She died around 10:15 a.m.
We had a memorial for her at my parents' church & had her cremated (she didn't trust the mortician to apply her makeup the way she liked it done - no open casket funeral allowed). She's being buried today in Portis, KS where she was raised.
Looking back at the week, this is what I've realized:
1. Life is crazy. Especially for a working girl. But FIRST THINGS FIRST. In my book, family is first. I am SO THANKFUL that I took the time to spend time with her on her final days of life, and be there to comfort & grieve with my family. It was a hard week for me to walk away from work, with all of the events happening that I had been planning for months, but I am truly glad I found a way to work it out.
2. Once I had made the tough decisions: canceling lunch plans with a friend that I hadn't seen in months, exiting an event & having to ask my team to fill in for me, skipping bootcamp (well, that one wasn't so tough) - I just had to LET IT GO. Initially I struggled with the guilt of cancelled committments & wished that I could be in two places at once, but the only thing I could do was let it go. Luckily, I have very supportive & understanding people in my life.
3. Jeanette's death was unexpected. But she was almost 81 years old & her health was slowly deteriorating. But when she past, there were less tears than there were smiles. Less sobs than laughter. She was an amazing woman and she believed in Jesus. She is now in heaven, a better place. It felt so right to be joyful for her. Her life was full of love, family, friends, passion, mess, laughter, joy, beauty - it was blessed.
Thank you for all of the wisdom & life lessons you have passed on to us, Nana. I'm sure you are looking down from heaven right now - lipstick & all. : )