April 16, 2017

Life Right Now

Life is so full for us right now - we're getting settled in a new home, in a new city on an island, no less! Remi is beautiful and observant and quickly growing. I'm busy at work while Cory is doing all the things we need to do to get us settled, like buying a car.

We're trying to unpack boxes, visit the beach (priorities!) and stay in touch with family and friends on a 4-5 hour time zone difference. Figuring out new routines, new places to make our own, new ways to eat and live - an endless amount of new.

I love this part.

So while we have all of this beauty and all of this LIFE swirling around us, I'm struggling. I struggle because I want to keep it all contained and remember every second of it. I want to take it all in as fully as I can and be present (my word of the year), but somehow save it at the same time.

And I don't know how to do that. Because I know there really is no way to do that. But I couldn't forgive myself if I didn't at least give it my best shot.

Is this how all parents feel? Or is this because I'm realizing that at least a third of our life has come and gone now that we're in our thirties? I'm not sure what has spurred this unrest in my soul, but lately I've just wanted to savor and preserve "us".

I plan to fill you all in on the move, what life looks like in Hawaii, life as a mama and more, but tonight I'm just sitting with this feeling.